3 days in a row! =D


E. maths test so much much much more easier than the common test. sweet~ i failed my fnn test! shucks..


SAM TOOK MY FNN HMWK HOME! god..

SAMMI! if you're reading this right now.. rmb to bring my mindmap to school tmr!! or.. put my mindmap in ur bag NOW!! i'll be skinned alive by faizal if its not handed up to him by tmr.

thanks loads! =)


i was walking wif alibaba to mac. he was infront of me! HE SMILED AT ME! WHEE! den. went to fnn remedial wif jamiatul. walked.. almost reaching the gate. he was somehow somewhat behind me. i turned ard when i was in the school. he said hi to me! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! he's so cute! and he told me he read my every post. die~ i wonder if he knows that i like him. =/


looking at your picture..

gosh.. i cant believe he read all my posts!! goodness.

and! he even remembered my url! wheee~ ahahaha!
i'm turning in.

cya!

:D

one of them told me he said he doesnt know me. then another she told me that he doesnt know me. seriously, i have no idea wads going on.


went upstairs after recess. found out that he was walking INFRONT of me. gosh.. suddenly. he and his friend stopped walking. they turned back. he saw me. he said, "HI!" and waved. OH MY GOSH! my heart like stopped beating. i could have died on the spot.. hahaha! waved back. and smiled! ROFL!


i'm real confused.. does he know that i'm joyce? dilemma! haiyo..


i think she doesnt like the idea of i liking him. i'm guessing that she must have liked him too.


i hate fnn's theory!! i'm practically yawning through the whole lesson.. luckily i was sitting in the back. i want practical!! having fnn on friday! plus practical! YAYS! =D


i'll give, all the love in the world. =)

i'm guessing everyone knows who's R. yep! i'm cheery this past 2 days! YIPEE~


monday..
he went into 3/6!! and! i hid behind shakila. too paiseh le.. LOL. den! after common test.. i went outside to take my books back in the class. i looked to my left, -screams- he was looking at me! plus! he was smiling.. HAHAHAHA!! i think i smiled back too. my happy day~ =)


today!
had cca. now i know.. so many people hate "mei nu". tsk tsk.. shes NOT going to be the CL! hahahaha! even chengyi disagrees that shes a good person. den! i was at the slope there. i looked at the gate.. i saw him! den shiping shouted, "QY!" den he turned. i waved to him. he waved back! i sceamed. ROFL! at the canteen. i was throwing something. he walked past me. i said, "HELLO!!" and smiled at him. his reply. "HI!" smiled back at me too! GOSH!


I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! =D


so toot! so cute! yuan yuan is soo kuku! =)

this is a message to my friend. lets call her, R.


R:
we were very close together with the rest of the ane's during our secondary 2 lives dont we? i mean.. we did get into the same sec 3 class. and we are like.. drifting apart.. you told me that we will go home together with the ane's. i did wait for you after school. but you, you left without telling me a word. i went with the ane's to mac. i saw you. you were with your cca friends. after you have been a councillor, i guess that some things must have changed, alot.. and during the lvl camp. i walked past you. you looked at me, i wanted to wave to you, instead, you looked at me, and turned away. seriously, it didnt happen once, it happened alot of times. you told me to wait for you every period before recess. but you went off, without noticing the ane's. i tried calling out to you. you din turn back. sometimes i get the feeling that once you have new friends, you throw your old friends down into the dump. you din care about what we felt no more. you're just using us. i'm truly disappointed.

you dont have to read this R.


him! him and him! xD

back from the sec 3 level camp! wheee~


had the kayaking first. but it was low tide, so we did rafting. i thought it was boring in the first place, indeed it was. had to build it by ourselves. a lizard appeared out of nowhere.. -screams- build build build.. an hour passed. our raft was not the best looking among the other 3 groups. but, what matters was in the inside right? carried it to the sea. once it was placed in the sea, the competition started. 2 of the rafts had broken up into pieces. -chuckles- our group and 1 group continued. i went on the second time. we had to go on a relay. which was to go 3 times.. yes~ that lady in a boat keep telling the rest of the 4 people, "follow that girl! follow that girl! she's doing it correctly! follow her follow her!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA!! we won!!! -singing the 3 cheers-


had the team building games after lunch. my shoes were soaking wet with sea water plus loads of sand. den while walter lim was talking to us about some teamwork stuffs, i was calling puifun, "puifun puifun! look at my shoes! can make water leh!" i squeezed my shoes, water came out. den walter lim said, "aiyo! that girl arh. dont make your shoes lah.. very disgusting leh, -laughs-" he was kidding though.. funny t'cher. =)


i hate that tent!! its full of some stinking god damn mud!! eewww!! and! its full of some disgusting sandflies and MOSQUITOES!!! AHHHHH!! sandflies.. what are they? flies that are made out of sand? -.-"


woke up the next morning, my legs were filled with those irratating mosquitoes bites!!! wanted to place the photos here.. but, nahz.. i've changed my mind. its gross. cant really stop those itch. and those sickening sandflies bit me!!! -kills them-


had high element games the next day. we din get to try the first one. some other group came. curse them.. i was sitting there. infront of the second game. then that guy suddenly pointed to me, telling me to go over. went over. OH MY FRICKING GOD! its so damn high up and it was so difficult to climb up!! and a guy from the other side pulled up me up. everything was fun! except we din get to try the flying fox.


next was the low element games. theres an event that i'll like to elaborate on. while we were playing the spiderweb thinggy, i suddenly broke down and started crying. i just couldnt help but stop tears from flowing. cant believe i cried.. sheesh! i'm sensitive though.. the reason is, someone said something about her own body mass. then, i denied it. some other people pointed to me. i was mad though.. but at the same time, i was hurt by her words. then, i broke down. seriously, try being in my shoes for awhile. seriously you wont even like one single bit.

sangeetha cheered me up. she knew how it was like being someone like me. she's like the only one who can really understand how i feel. ^^


well, i felt much better the next day. (:
overall, the camp was really really fun!!
our group, GROUP 9 WON THE BEST GROUP!
SECOND PLACE! *claps*


i went home, on my handphone. GOSH!! I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES!
BLUR BOY SENT ME 2 SMSES!!! -SCREAMING-
okok!! he's like the most charming boy i've ever seen!
i really regret not bring my handphone to the camp. he even knew i was at the camp!! ahaha! oh yah.. the whole sch was camping. =.="


I LOVE YUAN YUAN!
=DD

yes.. i've cut my hair!! -sobs- now it looks very very short. actually.. not very short.. -.-"


during physics, we used the vernier caliper. den got that poking thing at the back of that vernier caliper.. den my sis wanted to poke kerk's butt. AHAHAHA!! kerk's funny though..


i waited from 1630 to 1700+, and shiping cant din show up!! -mad- have to go up to her class..

and and!!
I SAW YUAN YUAN! WEETS!! he's sweeping the floor. i guess he's in detention. oh yah.. he is in detention.. =/ he's so cute!! gosh!
-falls deeply in love-


yep! tmr shiping and i are going to be the "ex-cos" for that training. abit nervous though.. we have so many things to do tmr! cant wait!


BTW! thnks ass! AHAHAHAHA!!
=))


i love yuan yuan.
:D

cca open house was quite fun! although some people declined to even take a look inside. and they dont even want to take my flyers or something. some sec 1s have attitude problems.. tsk tsk tsk..


when i was coming down the stairs.. omg! guess who i saw? weeee~ i saw blur boy! AHAHAHAHAHA!! smiled at him though.. =D


i love my yuan yuan. (:

the 11th floor residents are
DRIVING ME NUTS!

all those construction sounds, knocking sounds.. blah blah blah.. you name it!!

cant take it anymore..

i miss him. i love him.


FRIDAY THE 13TH!!
i had some bad luck though..


wankee almost fainted once she knew that blur boy was in her class. tsk tsk.. slow reaction sia.. LOL. =D


cca open hse tmr. full guides uni!! AHHHH!!! and no pony tails. die die die..


i found you.

HOW I HATE THAT FUCKING BITCH STANDING AT THE SCHOOL'S BOOKSHOP!!


i was ordering the chemistry files, den that pig wants to torture me. keep asking me to count those coins a thousand million times. fucking asshole.. cant help shouting every single words into her deaf ears. get fired as soon as possible, get a real life. (:


and oon yu and raj!!
WATCH OUT. you people dont pay me for any chemistry things the next time, you're gonna die.


puifun, sammi, my sis and me named our chemistry grp..
ALIBABA!
ahahaha. actually it was some other name.. but i was laughing like siao. so, changed it. now, our wonderful work was being pasted on the wall next to puifun and i. *admires*


BLUR BOY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
=)


yes of cause its not worth it. what are you? blind? craps..

tweety bird's lesson was so god damn funny! the 4 of us laughed real hard. i couldnt control myself. sam wrote on jie's bk, saying, "look at tweety bird's eyebrow! one long one short. LOL! " luckily i dint glance nor look through it, i might have died. =/


HE'S SO CUTE!! 100% CUTE! and he's got the gong gong look. ain it adorable?
i love my blur boy! xD


i was thinking, why should i be afraid and keep running away from him? and them? nop! i shouldnt be. either ways, i wont be changing my blog. look at my posts for all you want. i dont fricking care no more..


3 CHEERS FOR MY BLUR BOY! :D


suffering in silence

everything's a mistake..

1 huge mistake.


i regret it..

truly..


look on the bright side,

i'm gonna change my url soon. (:


-pukes- i din even know why i even bothered. you should be greatful that i felt the same way.. yes, all of them agreed. seriously, how fake can you get? what? the next thing you can tell me is.. that you're gonna commit suicide? please.. you started it first. let go

yes! i bought the last fnn textbook..

ty puifun, matin and jasmine! sorry jasmine! for "stealing" your last book..

SORRY!


oh great. now the main computer broke down.. shit.


maybe its my fault, i never should have answered. hate me for all you want, i cant do anything anymore..

i'm under depression.. again.


why do i keep having bad luck? maybe its called, karma. i'm having my own retribution.. yes. i'm a bitch, a fucking liar, a whore. curse me, may i be gone soon. why cant i be like other kids? i look like a normal kid. but, why cant i just be like them? i'm going bonkers soon. the first week of school has just ended. and.. my troubles are starting to surface up again. its like a daily routine.. for a year or so. nobody ever listens to me anymore. talk behind my back for all you want you miserable people, i dont really fricking care. i cant do anything right.. crap. how stupid can i get? she told me what you felt after hearing my tone yesterday. sorry.. please dont let this thing get to you that much. my little piece of heaven suddenly turns dark. and its only the beginning of year 2006. i wanna end this fucking life..


those shoutings, yellings, screamings, constantly repeating itself in my mind. throbbing in my head. i've tried many ways to stop it, but i failed. dark clouds hoved around the white, cheery, puffy clouds. it resembles like my life, which was once like a heaven, but its hell to me now. the night came, thunder filled with angst yelled out. the eye-shattering lightning flashed endlessly. negative thoughs engulfed my mind, controlling me to do things which i detests. fighting that moment, i'm helplessly dangling on a piece of string. sometimes i wished that i could just fall. after ending my life, i might not feel that hurtful and miserable on the inside. who knows? i might be in heaven..

qyqyqyqyqy

imysm.

:)

i fell sick. stupid bacteria flying and floating ard. curse dem..


had to buy tt fnn txtbk. tt stupid auntie at e bkshop.. tt older one. always fight back at me.. ytd, i was rushing for time. and she kept lagging me.. shit her. and! the best thing is. after recess was fnn. yet she dont wanna sell me. *points third finger*


had fnn exam. T.T .. first lesson of practical, and theres an exam. i was one of the first few to start the exam first. we had to fry an egg, sunny side up. and some french fries. easy? not for me. =.="


tt jian hao was infront of me. he seemed like my "mirror". he kept following what i do. wad he was doing? is wad i call, copying! DISGRACE MAN!
i did quite a number of mistakes..


-i cut e potatoes wrongly.
-i peel the potato skin off using the knife. i should have used tt slicing thing.. too bad. i din look in my drawer. and the best thing is.. faizal saw my doing that. i think i've scored low.
-there wasnt enough time for me to finish up everything. i was the second last to serve everything. sad..
-faizal keep staring at me when i cooked. SCARY..
-i kept coughing when i was cooking the egg. the smoke was "poisonous"
-coughed throughout the whole exam.. OMG.


& BEST OF ALL. i have a confession..



I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO CRACK AN EGG!


i'm such a loser.. =.=" my maid dont even let me cook. let alone do all the chores.

IT WAS SO FUN TODAY AT MAC!!

xD

oh innocent one,
feel my mind in yours,
take my wishes to your heart;

i bought an OP BAG!
thankies mummy!


muackss!



school's reopening tmr!


that means..


i'm not gonna go online for AGES!


& i'm gonna blog once a week from now on..


pretty devasting news to me though.


peer leading tmr!
WOOTS!

=)

HAPPY NEW YR PEOPLE!



i'm addicted to point blank & WILD ARMS!! i've been playing it for about a week, non-stop.
FREAKY!


i saw that billabong bag that i've always wanted today!! but that price of the bag? you dont wanna know..


& that nike shoes? ITS OUTTA STOCK ALREADY!!
went home with nothing.


sad, isn't it?



i dont wanna go to school!


i'm gonna miss point blank!
i'm gonna miss wild arms!
i'm gonna miss my maple pet!
i'm gonna miss mapling!
i'm gonna miss the computer!
i'm gonna miss waking up late!


& most importanly..


i'm gonna miss him loads.
(:


i love you sweetie.

i've been wondering.. why do people working at fast food restaraunts always provide chilli sauce and NOT tomato sauces? and people who wants tomato sauce, like me, will always have to ask for it? why dont they provide tomato sauces? weird..



sometimes, i think mummy is just UNFAIR!! i mean.. she paid my sis's rebonding fees, and she got her hair rebonded at jean yip. my mum even bought her a new pair of nike sport shoes!! and me? i have to pay for my own rebonding fees? what nonsense..



I NEED A NEW BAG!
AND SHOES!




HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE PEOPLE!




i'm glad i've seen you. i'm glad you felt the same way. i feel down, whenever you're down too. please dont be unhappy anymore k??
i love you my dear. =)


i wanna hold your hand..

2006 is coming, a new year.. that means..
A NEW WISHLIST!

my long long old wishlist..
nahz, forget it. :)


tmr is the eve of the new yr!!
WEETS~

i'm MAD! mummy just wont buy me that OP bag, not even thinking about that billabong bag. awww, i really wanted that billabong bag! i even took a photo of it outside the shop. and that NIKE SPORT SHOES!!

those last few words you said, i thought you were my greatest pal. and now, you act as if the whole world bows down to your feet, you're just a selfish freak who cares only bout yourself.
seriously, how idiotic can you be?


him*

back from that peer leader training thing or workshop.


i'm being posted to grp 5!! din know any single one of them at the start. i'm pathetic. we called ourselves the "SEXY BANANAS". i love our grp cheer!


well, overall it was FUN!

& our grp came in first!
thats something to be proud of. =D

i love SB!

xD

taking my shame to my grave..

went to watch the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe.


seriously.. there was LOADS of people at near bugis there. and that mrs loh.. she chose the seats for us, and that seat was WAY WAY WAY at the front. OH MY GOSH..

there was someone talking at the front, and i'm yawning and yawning non-stop. cnt stop talking.. and they threw chocos. -caught one- :) my right was huishin! my left was anyu!
ahahaha!


the show was simply FAB!! a must see show. yep!


went to walk ard at bugis after the show. took some neo-prints..

THE FOLLOWING PICTURES ARE NOT SUITABLE FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED. =D

LOOK AT AILING'S EYES!! O.O

lil princesses. =)

CAMP CO.!

I LOVE GUIDES! XD

=D


its been a long long long time since i've posted photos in my blog. =.=" went hm wif durga after that.. cc! ahahaha!


i'm feeling moody. a moodswing i guess..


i still do think about you. (:

ytd was a disaster! yet a worthy day for me. :)


went to jp mrt's station's toilet. my sis wanna go there so i accompanied her. after we came out, my sis suddenly shouted that her fone was missing, we ran all the way back, pushing everyone that was getting in our way. but, to no avail, her fone was never to be found again. that fucked up bitch, couldnt even return to us even though it was xmas, i guess she must have been thinking that this was her lucky day, and her fucking present was my sis's birthday present.

seriously, why cant any fucking people just give back to the rightful owner?? why made them suffer?? why make them worry about their handphones?? why cant they spend a fucking thought about what will happen to them?? or cause them so much trouble??

seriously i wish that fucking money-minded bitch to have these fucking nightmares, get knocked down by a ar or something. she will get her own retribution back.. someday..


the reason i went to jp, is because i'm meeting him! i think that it was a bad start when i saw him, my eyes were abit tearry. yep! but manage to say something to him. after drying away my sister's tears, and cutting the phone services, we went to buy the movie tickets. my sis and i took out the money, and wanted to pay. but.. he paid for us le.. =/ he said it was our xmas gifts. ty!! ate at ljs. seriously. i cant stop smiling non-stop. =S went to watch "kk" yep.. well, we missed the last train home.. so we hv to take the bus. he's such a nice guy.. he even walked us home. actually not home, near our home. but.. so nice of him right?? we din talk much though.. at least i get to walk beside him!! haha. suddenly.. i miss him alot. =)


going for the free movie tt loh treated us. WHOOPEE! tt narnia show. going to bugis with the camp committee ppl~ cnt wait! =D


you're the most important thing to me,
i love you my dear.

:)

am i getting excited?
or am i getting afraid?

should i lie to them, that instead of staying here, i'm going there?

i'm confused.

I'M BACK FROM GENTING!

xD

WEEE~~ back from the camp le.


DAY 1

met up wif the rest of e camp committee members. i was the last to reach there again.. they are really early. shiping, ailing, zubi and durga went to lead e pt, while anyu and i went to hide the clues for the treasure hunt. we hide the about 2-3 clues den we found out that we did it wrongly, we have to run back and redo the whole thing over. =.=" hide hide hide. reached the last destination, at the fountain, the big big fountain. we tried to stick it underneath, but it fell in the water instead. so we put it somewhere on top.. we followed 1 of the grp. yeap! that grp was v v enthu. loads and loads of ideas. after tt was field cooking. we sent them out to settle their lunch themselves. den left us (committee members), we chose a spot. seriously, the wind there was HUGE!! we had difficulities. yeap! we managed to cook everything on time. *clap clap* we had some games after tt. the marching part was like the most TIRING part EVER! everybody was like dying. after dinner, we had obstacle race, before that, grp B as suppose to clean up that area. one of them, i wont sae out her name. she mopped the floor for about less than 3 mins, i walked over, she complained to me that she has been doing it for a v v long time, and told me to help her mop and put it back afterwards. wad crap. T.T .. the telematch was soo fun!! everybody went to bathe afterwards.. only us, (committee members) were the only ones dirty. dang~ we slept outside the classroom. seriously.. it was so damn COLD!!


DAY 2

we woke up 15 mins later. we found out they havent even woke up! yeap.. no comments on the 2nd day though..


i love the camp committee!!


i'm going overseas tmr..
3 days 2 nights..
i'm gonna miss you loads.

i love you too. (:

i cant sleep late in the night, those shouting are keeping me awake. i wanted to go in and stop everything. but i just cant, i cant interfere with anything. all i could do is to just hear all the sufferings. i cant stand the pain. i hear the beatings, my heart ached, whenever i hear you hitting her. i couldnt stop but let the tears flow. you showed me the injuries. my heart stopped, i started to cry again. but whenever i looked at you, i just cant help thinking that you were an aggressive person. i started to pity everyone. i was wondering, should i leave home? i will not have known what had happened, and you would not tell me the truth either. should i?



going away for the camp tmr.

just heard the song.. stick with you by the pcd. man!
but that song was feat some guy.. really sucks!

i heard that song.. i was like..
PUIPUIPUI!!
*thumbs down*


2 MORE DAYS TO THE GG CAMP!
4 MORE DAYS TO THE GENTING TRIP!

=))


dont be sad ya?

<3

i'm god damn tired.

e camp committee so called "pon" guides.. we ran off to je to buy some stuffs. came back wif all those stuffs.

it was so damn heavy! must hv made me a few inches shorter nw.. =.="


den.. we came back..


& tt stupid fucking bitch, all because of her, we hv to redo the treasure hunt clues & ans all over again.

her BIG; CHIO; UNFORGETTABLE eyes, peeked into our proposal, causing so much inconvience to us.

we hv to run round & round e school, finding a secretive place for e clues.


we're gonna make sure tt grp B dies of running. (:



tt BITCH!
si bei act chio lor..

damn that bitch.

a BIG hole appearing.
=(

i miss you guys!
<3

she sings like an angel
but you cant hear a word..

seriously.. tt camp thinggy, that we have to plan..

I'M SO DARN STINKING TIRED!


okay.. the camp "people"

CC - durga
ACC - ailing
T - me!
P - shiping
L - zubaidah
AC - anyu


i'm so excited!

they are coming over to my house todae!

0912.. still no sign of them
they must have got lost.

X))

YILIAN'S GREATEST WORK OF ALL. XD

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/425722969



XD

i'm breaking down.

you dont have to repeat yourself over and over again.
i dread hearing your fucking voice.
you make me fucking sick
so what if you do observe us?? stop your fucking whining
you dont have to observe us you know?? its just your mental problem.
we dont do what you want, we have our own personal reasons
its just that your fucking ears dont wanna listen to us
its not our damn problem. its yours
and stop putting the fucking blame on us,
esp me.

STOP YOUR FUCKING NONSENSE.

my stupid com broke down today..
i'm so fucking mad.
yeap~~ fixed le. (:


i'm full of moods.. call it a moodswing if you want. devasted, anger, jealousy.. whatever.


i hate moodswings.. makes me a psycho. T_T


i love MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!
i love GOOD CHARLOTTE!
i love T.A.T.U!
i love THE CLICK FIVE!


hey girl, i'm gonna catch your wave.

its the end.

i dont wanna live no more.

life isn't any use to me no more

life sucks.

i wanna stab myself a thousand million time.

suddenly.. i feel so..

DEPRESSED, SAD, MISERABLE, I'M IN DESPAIR.


i wanna stab myself a million times.

we, (ailing, shiping, zubaidah, durga & me) planned for the 19th and 20th of dec gg camp. the sec 1s & 2s will be there only.. so..

ANY SEC 1S OR SEC 2S GUIDES READING THIS..

PLEASE PLEASE COME TO THIS PATHETIC CAMP!!!


i was e last to reach jurong.. OMG! so paiseh.. =S
talk talk talk.. discuss discuss discuss.. FINALLY!! ITS DONE!!


durga & sp thought of ways to punish dem.. tsk tsk tsk.. their influenced minds.. *shakes head* i gave dem an idea.. to wash the toilets in the middle of the night!!! =D


den.. went to check the prices of those items.. T.T

seriously.. i love hanging out wif my gg frens ((:


i'm REAL REAL confused. heard some things from him, heard another thing from dem.. it was YOU PPL!

THAT SICKENING GRP OF PPL.. YOU PPL STARTED THIS FUCKING NONSENSE. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU HEARD IT. YOU PPL MADE ME LOCK MY BLOG.. YOU SICKENING BUNCH OF IDIOTS, YOU SPREAD EVERY NONSENSE YOU HEARD. THAT FUCKING BASTARD, CANT YOU JUST TELL IT INFRONT OF MY FUCKING FACE?! INSTEAD OF SPREADING THE FUCKING NEWS THAT I LIKE YOU, (which i dont now) TO ALL YOUR FUCKING CLASSMATES. CANT YOU PPL JUST POKE UR FUCKING NOSES SOMEWHERE ELSE?! sheesh..

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it though every storm
What is life, whats the use if your killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

maybe i'm just being scared of everything.
unknowingly, 4 probs rose up to me.
i'm getting mad for 4 days straight.

HIM;
thanks for everything you've done. you listen to me when i'm down or when i'm having probs. you were the one who was willingly to open your listening ear to listen to me when i'm unhappy. not everyone wants to listen to me, they think that i'm just grabbing attention.. no i'm not. true friends are really hard to find nowadays..


i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall alsleep cause i miss you babe, & i dont wanna miss a thing~

i've removed my password thinggy.. thats because..
i think that i shuldnt be afraid of dem reading my blog or anything.
seriously.
PLEASE STOP SPOUTING NONSENSE.
tt particular class.. T.T
i dont wanna love nor like anyone anymore.
i'm real pissed off for 3 days straight.. i dont think i cant endure my anger no more.
everyone ard me is making me mad.

i have nothing to say..

I'M PISSED

I'M BACK FROM THE GUIDES CAMP!!

lets say.. guide camp was.. FUN!

DAY 1
went to sch. met up wif ade.. den, we went to wait at e carpark 2gether wif the rest of e sec 2s. we carried their HEAVY bags, checked in for dem, escort dem to the hall. seriously, wad dey were carrying were simply jus HEAVY! really pity dem.. those "small-sized" kids carrying such load. *shakes head*

went to prepare for the games at 4+. the first 2 grps came. jie keep begging me to tell dem the instrutions. =.=" no sickening ppl wanted to hear me. in e end, asked dem if dey noe the game. NONE OF DEM KNEW!! *slaps* esp 1 ger.. si bei sacarstic. buay ta han her.. T.T .. after everything, had some waterbombs left. tt durga threw everything on me. WATCH OUT DURGA!! =X

went hm after dinner. came back afterwardsblah blah blah.. slp in e canteen, on the tables somemore. zzzz.. theres 2 CATS loitering in e sch. i woke up in e middle of e nite, seeing 2 cats staring back at me. had a huge shock! T.T


DAY 2
woke up, my back was hurting like siao. seriously, it was damn cold.

campfire.. okay. it was quite fun i guess..

we sent shiping off to the sch gate. after tt, ade, ailing, grace and me went to stand on e sch gate and called mrs neo to pushed us ard. xD


DAY 3
we're SO PISSED off. we, ailing, ade, shiping, grace and me sang our "favourite" song. started by ailing..

"JENNY KENNY WA WA! MEI KE REN AI DE WA WA! JENNY JENNY WA WA! lalalala~~"

buay ta han her (:


1st look: i laughed at you
2nd look: i rmbed tt incident and continued to laugh
3rd look: some feeling got over me
4th look: i'm in love

going away for a camp tmr. =(
go there do nth. OMG..
its a 3 days 2 nights camp.
stay for 1 nite nia.. coming back on wed nite. (:

went for guides today. after the briefing, which was super duper fast, we went to play caption's ball & bball. =.="
i was wearing the sch uniform. my goodness! i'm going to sweat like a pig. -.-"


went to buy maple card.. AGAIN. my sis lor.. always nt satisfied wif her hair.. zzzz.



nothing hurts like love..

YEAH~~ todae is my birthday! celebrated it at east coast. 2gether wif.. puifun, shiping, ailing, anyu, jie and me!! =D

woke up. seriously.. i'm panicking of wad to wear.. wad to bring. LOADS! met up wif puifun. walked to the mrt station. when to buy a maple card. yays! FINALLY!! my sis was soo scared, in the end. i hav to ask for it myself. T.T


went to shiping's hse. took everything.. we had to WALK a long long distance. esp when in e mrt. seriously. i'm falling alsleep.. LOL. reached there in e end.

ate our lunch first.. den, we went to rent bicycles. yea~~ rode ard.. to the jetty.. lalala~~ xD

den.. we went to the beach or shore. whatever.. we got into the water.. anyu and jie cant go in. beats me.. shiping, ailing, puifun and me went in. seriously. i had LOADS of fun there!! den mummy and daddy came wif jie and my cake!! =D took some fotos. (:


1 BIG FAMILY! grace. ailing, shiping, anyu, puifun and me! *muackss*

from left; me, shiping, ailing, puifun, anyu & grace!
MUMMY AND DADDY!!
Bdae ger. (:

OUR BDAE CAKE!! *YUMMY*

and.. me and my sis changed our hairstyle.. maple of cuz. and heres the fotos..

for ur info.. she changed thrice!! NOT FAIR!

my ugly hair!! OMG!!

oh yah! my first present giver.. ALVIN! thank you for the maple dog! *muackss* =D and and! the guys for ur present!! THANK YOU! ^^

i've suffered sunburns!! YAYS! i'm darker now!! xD

TMR IS MY BIRTHDAY TMR IS MY BDAE TMR IS MY BDAE!!!!


yipee~!!! turning 14 le! xD


mummy and daddy decided to bring jie and me for a treat, to celebrate eariler for us. cuz tmr there wun be enuff time. (: when to eat. daddy handed me a letter. its a edusave merit bursary. ^^


i wun get tt money cuz daddy & mummy's total income is more den $3000. -cries-
oh well~ nt fated to get the award anyways. =X


1 hr and 18 mins left to 12.
^^

you cheer me up everytime when i'm down.
you brighten up my life when my life is dull.
you were there for me everytime when i needed a listening ear.
you cared for me when others dont.

i love you. (:

went to macritchie thinggy for hiking~~ xD


took some fotos. yl haven send dem to me yet.. so.. no fotos yet. xD


we walked at e back wif mrs loh. den while walking. we saw a monkey! xD we all ran past him. mrs loh was left behind. tt monkey showed its teeth at mrs loh. OMG~~ imagine. how funny can it get? LOL.


walk walk walk.. damn tired. everyone were..

a pity..

he was outside the school,
i walked past.
i saw him.
yeap!

no. he dint notice me..
he din see me.

=(

i want to show that..
that i really cared for you.
i dont show concern for him no more.
he's 1 bad example.
and you ain

(:

my terrible, idiotic past.
you destroy every bit thats left of me
i wanna start over again..
is it so difficult??

hey,
i'm pretty much worried about you.

you seemed a little..
troubled??

i can see from your msn nick
tell me anything if you must okay?
cheer up! xD

Natalie Feat. Justin Roman - Where Are You

[Justin]
(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Natalie]
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Justin]
There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

[Natalie]
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

[Justin]
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

[Natalie]
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

[Together]
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

[Justin Talking]
Where are you? I'm going to look all over the world baby
'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you
dadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadada
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah)dadadadadada

Where are you??



i miss you..
there's still loads of reasons why i like you.
=)


4 more days to my birthday. (:

sorry i took so long to reply your sms.
sorry.
i misplaced my handphone (:


I'M SO FRICKING JEALOUS OF MY SISTER!!

okay. at about 1+, my sister received a sms from "him". he typed,"hey.. i at your hse there le.." seriously. she jumps for joy~ later. after a few smses, "he" telephoned my sister. and he said that he was directly downstairs of our hse. we ran to the balcony to look. yes~ he was there. den "he" kept persuading my sister to go down. but hey! its like.. 2 in the morning. my parents will kill us and go wild if they found out 1 of the twin is gone. den "his" fren started waving at us. too bad sister. den.. the bad thing is. they all started smoking. MY GOODNESS. seriously.. i do hate smokers alot.


thankfully, he isnt a smoker.
you're the most important thing in my life
love you loads!

just fetched daddy from the airport
OMG.
while waiting for him, there's a man standing infront of my sister and me.
my sister was like, "MEI! see that man's back!!"
i was like.. "HUH? WHERE GOT WHERE GOT?!?!"
den i looked at the man's back.
OMG! there was something poking outta his back.
some unknown object.
he made it worse, he bent over his back, making it more OBVIOUS!
i cant stop laughing
i laughed till i cried.
that was 1 of my most happiest moments ever.
^_____^

you took so long just to know i'm refering to "YOU"
wow.
ahahahaha!!

sry. i cant tell you everything. =D

she told me everything
actually not everything
most of it i guess
about you,
sleeping late,
bills expensive,
not concentrating.

i'm too ashamed to ask you.
=X


daddy's coming home today!! i keep wondering that whether he brought me a gift. (:


6 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY! ^^
27.11.91

i'm dreamt of you
you're so silly,
its so obvious. ((:


those words you said,
that you cared about me
i'm..
satisfied??
is that the word to use??
ya..

i miss you loads. ((:

ahahaha! i cant think of anything.. T.T


hav guides camp. 29 of nov?? 2 days after my birthday~~

WEEEE!!
8 MORE DAYS. XD


she's just the girl i'm looking for~

TO HIM:
no,
i dont blame you.
(:

TO HER:
you pissed me off every single moment when i talk to you.
dont try to be nice to me or whatsoever
your pathetic act,
others can see it through easily.
i never thought someone so dear to me can be such a pain in the ass.

you suck big time

ytd went to watch harry potter wif
THE CHALET GANG! +sharon. ahahaha.. i miss dem loads. (:
the chalet gang rocks! xD


daddy went to china at 1am td. awwww.. i miss you daddy! yi lun shun fong! =D


you dont care no more
all you care about is fame
no,
it ain the same no more..


& oh yah!!
YPPAH YADHTRIB ECNERALC
xD
*read it backwards


i felt so hopeless,
i never stood up for myself..

too busy to blog. OMG.. so hectic. =S

sorry,
din meant to off the phone.
my phone no battery le.
i must admit,
i'm pretty shocked you called
at the same time,
i'm celebrating~


xD

HAHAHAHAHA!!


you are so humorous. (:


thats 1 of the reason why i like you. ^^

do you?

dont curse yourself silly. (:
i know exactly what you mean.
you're so sweet.
hahahaha!!
dont need to feel paiseh de. xD
srry. i doze off.. LOL
din reply your smses. =X

love you loads. ^^

i often dreamt about you and me.
did it come true?
i often wonder about that..


SNAP OUT OF IT JOYCE!
HE'S NOT GONNA FALL FOR YOU!

(:

ytd. went to a chalet wif 2/7 peeps. had fun there.. LOL. some ppl, whom i've not met b4, was there.. o.O


OMG.. he called me ytd.

cant stop smiling even when i slept. LOL.. besides. i cant slp anyways.. the boys are sooo noisy. esp lengkiat. whom dey called, the 24 hrs radio. hahahaha!! xD



i wonder.. i wonder..

i miss you so much now.


weee~!! sooo fun!! taking screenshots wif you.
i'll edit it after i come back from the chalet.
den i'll put in my my msn dp, my desktop, or friendster..

(:

30 more mins left..
i cant see you in maple for the nxt 24 hrs anymore. ):


you're so sweet. (:

HAHAHA!!

SEE?!
ALVIN! I WROTE UR NAME! xD

f2 f2 f2


ALVIN ALVIN ALVIN
(:

your words are still roaming around in my mind.
you really meant what you said??


that portal, once i step into it,
i'll be able to see you once again.
but do i have the chance to?
those obstacles are blocking me,
refraining me to get in that portal.
will you step through that portal,
or that i'll see you once again?


i wont be able to see you again nor maple wif you tmr.
do i really want to go to that chalet??
not really..

ummm.. valerie told me she TAGGED me. okay.. LOL


rules of the game:
1) post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2)At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

5 weird/random stuffs about me:
o1- cant live w/o maple
o2- maple with him everytime i go online =X
o3- cant live w/o my double ANE & ah siao gang ((:
o4- i laugh REAL LOUD!
o5- weird.. real WEIRD


next 5 people doing this quiz:
Sharon
Grace
Yilian
Roufang
Linda

do not ask people who asked you to play or had already played before.


okay.. went for guides. had silver test.. shiping, yilian, puifun and me went to hide at the back door so that guan ying and wankee wun see us. LOL. indeed, dey din see us. hahahahaha!!!


loads of us discussed the answers. LOL.. including me =X


ITS MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! *MUACKSS*

(:

damn. tmr having gg silver test.. i'm gonna fail it. cant rmb anything..


i'm still pissed off bout the class i'm going. so fucking mad.. tmr going to see for myself when i go to sch for cca. OMG.. cca.. sucks


all e ppl i hate r going to 3/6. OH GREAT! i'm going to bear grudges against dem.. i miss naidu!!! shes going 3/7.. *cries*

HE SAW MY BLOG!

O.O

NOOOOO!!


not 3/6!! FUCK! in A maths somemore.. in FNN & hist.


i'm so DEPRESSED!

NOOOOO!! I DONT WANNA GO 3/6!! I DETESTS 3/6!!


sharon called. my sis answered. sharon told us that we're going to 3/6. FUCK. i wish she made a mistake. shuld i done badly in the EOYE. sooo regretful now.. I WANNA DIE.

i prefer jumping down the building than to be in 3/6. i miss 2/7 badly..and i mean real badly. miss those happy moments we've been together as a class.. except one time. when tt bastard stole my handfone. OMG. tt was in april..


i wanna be in 3/7!!!
I WANNA STAY IN 2/7 FOREVER!

my smses bills are going to pok liao. OMG! have been smsing this whole wk.. die die die.


smsed him ytd nite. WEEEEE~!!!! ahahahaha.. he's so funny everytime i maple wif him.. such a humorous guy. yeap! xD


i'm the most happiest girl in the world! ^^

NOOOO!! I'M NEVER GONNA TELL YOU WHY I LIKE YOU!!

even if you torture me, i'll never tell you~


weeee!! i just love playing maple wif YOU. ((:

everything is not working out right.

so, you wanna get back at us??

you wanna think everything you do is right??

oh pls.. think again. you're so wrong..


NOO!! i'm not jealous of your hair sis!!! you rebond le so wad?! i can rebond again mah.. NOT FAIR!! mummy paid for ur rebonding.. i have to pay for myself leh.. you go jean yip, i go neighbourhood de. NOT FAIR!! THIS WORLD IS NOT FAIR!! omg. i'm over-reacting..


27 mins to 12 le.. have to go tt website to see which class i'm being posted to. i dun wanna go to 3/6!! i wanna go to 3/7!!! *cries* sure gonna go to 3/6 based on wad siewying had told me just nw.. i'm so sad.. )=

3 words;

i'm so embarrassed.


i'm feeling sooo.. paiseh.


shuld nt have told him.. =X


i mean.. i just really got to know him in the last 3 days.


OMG. what have i done?!?!

si xiao qi guei. nv gonna talk to you in my whole life again


nxt fri is my mummy's birthday le.
I LOVE MY MUMMY TO BITS! *MUAKCSS*


i hate this mouse!! its so sickening. everytime i try to move it, the cursor flies ard. AHHH!! i cant stand it anymore.. =S


OH MY GOSH. have i really fallen for him??

=X

everybody's pissing me off. esp my dad.

pls lah, get the fucking facts right first before telling me i'm wrong bastard
you forced me to use this word.


black face?? oh please.. you dont even understand me, let alone you know how i feel.
you are a selfish man who thinks for himself only.
you dont care about the others,
how they feel,
how they want things to be.

you never let my have a chance to explain dad..


i'm utterly disappointed in you..

you ain the person which i used to admire alot.

now, to me,
you're just a selfish, heartless guy..

had a new kor ytd.. he told me loads of things that i din know.. esp the 2 persons he liked. wahahaha!! i can blackmail him!! xD

dint know that he smoked. not my kor, him.. he smoked. had 3 or more ex. hanging out with the wrong and bad company.. oh my god. he wasnt the person which i used to know.. i'm truely disappointed.


i hate you bitch. you wanna flirt?? go ahead! dont do your puking act infront of me. oh whatever bitch. dont act dao infront of me. pls lah..

hey dude!
dont OI me man
its rude.
you broke my heart.

i'm still wondering.. who was that guy?? according to him.. he told me he wasnt from his class.

oh great! someone knew my blog.. he oso must have knew that i like him rite?? must be.. how did he even get into my blog?? see my tags. nvm. ignore it. ((:


is he reading this?? o.O


i dont wanna go for guides ltr. i'm gonna slp thru the lessons to 5. =)


AHHHH!!! die die die.. mati mati mati!! my smses bill are gonna burst when i receive the bills. mummy and daddy are gonna skin me alive. =.="


i'm glad, you still remember me.
i'm glad, we still keep in touch.
i'm glad.
but 1 thing i'm not glad
is that..
i dont really like your...

NONONO!


i have no mood to go for guides tmr. plus, puifun told me that tmr we're having lessons. GOSH! can tmr get any more boring?!?!

EEEEE YUR!


banana man msged me. i was shocked i must admit.. he saed hello. i replied.


he asked me if i was open. erm.. din actually know wad that means. den he told me he found out my num by himself.. he's really really very weird i must really really admit.


den.. he asked me, are you interested in (something something) seriously. that shocked me. den keep asking me bout that thing. den i asked him, have you really (something something). den he said ya. he told me to keep it a secret.


dont ask me anything. my lips are sealed (:


mummy & daddy finally agreed to let my sis and i go for the class chalet!! YIPEE!
i'm over the moon!


finally, i've finished packing everything whole junk into that drawers and what so ever in there. sneeze a couple of times. i have a bad bad nose.. =S


realised that i have loads and loads of items that is still useful. why did i notice that a long long time ago?? goodness..


i love my chemical romance!
i love GERARD WAY!

i love the pang sai team!!!


ps 1; me!
ps 2; grace!
ps 3; clara!
ps 4; shih han!
ps 5; marc!
ps 6; huimin!


nahz.. clara and my sis named it. and i'm the leader! wahahaha!!! in maple.. ((:

YES I'M UPDATING YILIAN!! ((:


woke up in a bad bad bad mood.. mad man..


den went to the library.. went to the second floor to find a quiet spot. saw tt someone was looking at me. looked, i saw anyu!!! den saw ailing & shiping. 2gether wif her 2/2 frens. ((:


den went up to 4th floor. den we chatted and talked non-stop.. saying where shuld we go on my birthday.. actually, its nt my birthday.. its both my sis & my birthday. =) .. den talking hu shuld we invite. den blah blah..


dad go & reformat the whole computer. AHHHH!! all my folders! all my pictures! all gone. shit man..


ytd.. played maple. saw he was online.. i den wrote to all my buddy.. "(his name) ONLINE!!!!" and the best thing is.. i keep repeating. suddenly, i realised.. HE CAN SEE THE MSG!!! omg.. i'm damn paiseh.. shit man..


anyways..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMMI! LOVE YA LOADS! =D

went to a place. which i've forgotten. LOL


after my dad illegal park his car, i looked at the road there.. den i saw mrs yeo!!! hahaha!! den i shouted, "HELLO MRS YEO!!" den she looked at me, in a shocked way..


den i waved at her. den she waved back & said, "you all going for dinner arh??" HAHAHAHA!


soo qiao. ((:


stupid lmao.. came to post bout this. =X


now i noe.. mummy and daddy ain happy over my results.. PLS LAH! my chinese from 38 jumped to 73 leh.. no even a gd job nor gd work heard from you guys..


i'm disappointed.. )=

love my sister loads.

thnks sis! =D

thnks for the mesos & the clothes. ((:

got back our report bks today.. i kept smiling throughout when i was reading the comments. (:


my results.. again. overalls;
EL: 59, grade 5
MT: 59, grade 5
MATHS: 73, grade 2
SCI: 62, grade 4
HIST: 58, grade 5
LIT: 61, grade 4
HM ECONS: 65, grade 3
CME: B


OMG! i cant believe my literature gt higher den my history!! AHHH!! & the best thing is.. i've chosen history as one of my subjects already.. OMG! my biggest mistake of my life..


& the comments tt yip han has given me..

Joyce has been consistently hardworking and committed to continous improvement. She demonstrate a kind nature and is sensitive to the feeling of others. She sees situations in a positive light and is able to handle setbacks.


HAHAHA!! funny ain it??


total marks: 612/1000 ( lousy! )
percentage: 61%
conduct: GOOD
class position: 8/38
level position: 19/76
=D

had the 5 mins of fame. OMG! made me laugh like siao when 2/7 is performing.. esp when ismail, nazrul & syafiq are performing. after the performance.. it made me feel,

I DUN WANNA GO TO 3/6! I WANNA STAY IN 3/7!! I DUN WANNA MIX CLASS WIF 2/6!! I WANNA BE IN 2/7 FOREVER!!


geez.. i sound like a baby.. =S


dunno if dad's gonna skin me alive. but i sure know 1 thing, my dad is gonna scold my sis like hell, and my mum is gonna nag & nag non-stop at my sis.. get ready a piece of ear-plugs! ((:


I'M GONNA MISS 2/7 LOADS! xD


good day..


her1, her2.. PLS LAH.. dun act as if ppl owe you something. and besides, i dun owe you anything, it was you who owe me loads of things.

goodness.


went to see his profile. OMG.. there was like a cold war outbreak. his ex went to scold him in her profile. his fren went to tell him. GOSH..


but he did nothing.

now i know.. there's a soft side in him. ((: